I have a dilemma. I am currently playing in a weekly orchestra, but unable to attend the full performance, and sometimes, not at all. As the only one of my kind (Horn) in the orchestra, I may have several important solos, melodies or harmonies which affect the outcome of the piece of music and the balance. Plus, I feel as though I am letting others down. I have also had the misfortune of performing in concerts without any practice with the orchestra before and although I was not sight reading the music, I was sight and aurally reading the conductor and players around me.
I think this is different from playing alone, as one is in charge of one's own practice and others are not dependent on you.
Anyway, I'd like to know whether people of this forum play for practice (and socially) or for performance in an ensemble?
EDIT: No idea how this poll thing works