I heard a recording of Beethoven's Eroica symphony yesterday and afterwards for some reason it got me thinking that I have never ever thought that the famous 'wrong' entry of the horn at the end of the 1st movement development sounded incorrect, and this is going back to when I first heard the piece as a child. To me, the Eb major broken chord of the main theme works perfectly well against the violins despite them implying the dominant seventh harmony.
I understand even Wagner 'corrected' the second violins to play G instead of Ab to suggest the tonic rather than dominant seventh! And others assumed the horn entry was written in the tenor clef.
I've listened to these alternatives and they certainly don't sound any better than Beethoven's version. And that's what's worrying me: that I should be disturbed by – or at least recognise – his polytonality. But it has never sounded in any way wrong to me.
Now the fact that I've managed only a laughable grade 3 and struggle with the aural sections kind of makes obvious that I'm no polymath who understands Beethoven's genius, which makes me worried that I will never progress no matter how much I try because I simply don't have the basic machinery to 'get' music.
I don't expect the teachers on here to understand where I'm coming from (cue fatalism, self-fulfilling prophecy, focus practice etc), but I wonder if other learners, particularly adults coming late to music, have experienced similar feelings of inadequacy and thoughts that they will hit a plateau much earlier in their musical journey than they would have hoped simply because they don't have fundamentally what others do?