I’ve been toying with the idea of resuming my piano playing after one year without any practice or playing at all. At one point, about 1 year ago, I started to feel a slave to practice, the piano and to feel practice/piano playing as an imposition to raise my standard to Grade 8. Playing fast has always been a major problem as many pieces just fell through because I couldn’t get them played fast enough and couldn’t stand settling for a slower speed. Also my scales/arpeggios got to an acceptable standard but I couldn’t take them any further. My 61 years of age maybe play a part ... Before stopping altogether in December 2017, I changed teachers 4 times and always thought the fault lay with them but no … it is my very demanding superego that played me up, I guess.
Now, one year on, I am somehow sorry I stopped and feel like playing a little but keep blowing hot and cold and never get round to actually doing anything.
Has anybody ever felt like this? And did he/she overcome this difficulty? If so, how?